Sarah’s Journey from a Toxic Bank Job to Reclaiming Peace & Purpose

Have you ever felt trapped in a workplace that resembles a twisted carnival more than a productive office? The kind where every corridor feels like a funhouse mirror, reflecting back distorted versions of your ambition until you hardly recognize yourself? Toxic workplaces do that. They leave you dizzy, drained, and doubting your worth.

Sarah, a dedicated trade finance manager at the largest commercial bank in Iraq, knew this feeling all too well. Her journey shines a light on why so many of us stay far longer than we should in unhealthy environments — and what it takes to finally step off the ride.

Her salary and benefits were enviable, the kind of package that provided stability for a mortgage, a car loan, and two growing children. Walking away meant risking that stability — a gamble she couldn’t imagine making, not with so many responsibilities tethered to her paycheck.

Every morning she scanned job listings, but the fear of starting over gnawed at her. What if the new role was worse? What if her skills didn’t translate? What if her children’s future was jeopardized? The “what-ifs” became chains stronger than the job itself.

Eight years at the same bank had cultivated a deep sense of duty. Projects, teams, colleagues — she believed her absence would unravel it all. The longer she stayed, the more she told herself she couldn’t leave.

Rumours of management reshuffles, whispers of “better days ahead”… Sarah clung to these like lifelines. Even when changes never materialized, that flicker of hope was enough to justify another few months of endurance.

Her trade finance expertise was niche. She worried that beyond this bank’s walls, her skills would seem too narrow, her worth too small. Rebuilding her professional identity elsewhere felt impossible.

Ironically, the very people enduring the same dysfunction became her anchors. Shared sighs in the hallway, whispered encouragements, knowing looks across conference tables — they made the unbearable just a bit more bearable.

“It’s not that bad,” she told herself, over and over, even as her sleep deteriorated and her health faltered. Only when burnout slammed her body like a wall did she recognize the cost of minimizing the damage.

One meeting changed everything. Her ideas dismissed, her contributions erased, Sarah felt something inside her snap. She realized she couldn’t keep sacrificing her health and sanity on an altar that never valued her.

The next morning, her resignation letter was on the manager’s desk.

Walking away wasn’t glamorous. There were weeks of doubt, budgeting gymnastics, and awkward interviews. But eventually, Sarah landed in a healthier environment — one where her expertise was valued, her voice heard, and her evenings truly hers again.

Her story is a mirror for many of us: the reasons we stay are complex, tangled in money, fear, loyalty, and hope. But the lesson is clear — sometimes the bravest thing we can do for ourselves is to walk away.

Sarah’s journey is more than just a story about one toxic job; it’s a reminder that workplace culture can shape not only careers but well-being, relationships, and daily peace of mind. Financial stability, loyalty, and comfort often chain us to environments that no longer serve us.

The courage to leave isn’t about recklessness — it’s about recognizing the value of your own health, happiness, and professional growth. Sometimes, stepping away is the most productive, empowering, and necessary decision we can make.

In every cubicle, office, and bank branch, there are quiet Sarahs weighing their options, wondering if the golden handcuffs are worth the cost. Her story is a gentle nudge: listen to that inner voice, weigh the risks wisely, and never underestimate the power of reclaiming your own space — and your own peace.

8 thoughts on “Sarah’s Journey from a Toxic Bank Job to Reclaiming Peace & Purpose

  1. Matthew Scnurer's avatar Matthew Scnurer

    Business cares more about money than they do about you. Full stop. The people in that business are all, save for a few exceptions, decent folks, but over time, they have systemically created an environment which values the bottom line over any human beings. Only when something as serious as a pandemic happens do they seem to address this system, but it isn’t altered permanently, because the point of the system is to create more value for the shareholders, who often don’t even remember there are human beings working at these places. They only care about making more profit off their investment.

    I’m sure if you’ve read this far, you’re looking to see if I have some kind of point to this, and I really don’t, besides work is for suckers and we are all lollipops, myself included. It sucks, and you either stay that sucker or become one of the ones eating them in the market.

    Would you sell your soul to get out of the rat race?

    I don’t know. I really don’t know. I can’t afford to even start to find out 🤷

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    1. Thanks, Matthew. Honestly, I get where you’re coming from. Businesses are designed to optimize profit, and people—good, decent people included—often get swept up in the machinery of it. It’s frustrating because the system treats human effort as a cost rather than a value.

      That said, acknowledging the rat race doesn’t mean you’re doomed to it forever. Even small moves—side projects, learning new skills, building a network—can carve out options over time. You don’t have to “sell your soul,” but you do have to be strategic about protecting yourself while navigating a system that often forgets the human side of work.

      Sometimes, just realizing you’re not alone in feeling this way is the first step toward reclaiming a bit of agency. You’re not the sucker; you’re just noticing the game for what it is.

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      1. lucasjoel1d3b306bc9f's avatar lucasjoel1d3b306bc9f

        This highlights the multifaceted reasons employees stay in toxic jobs, such as financial dependence, fear of the unknown ie office politics, loyalty, hope for improvement, supportive colleague or unprofessional. Story does illustrates these challenges and underscores the importance of prioritizing personal well-being. Ultimately, the article serves as a reminder that while leaving a job is difficult, but it is often essential for long-term happiness ie peace of mind and health.

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  2. Angela Bayliss's avatar Angela Bayliss

    As someone with a 30+ year career, I don’t think you’ll find work at your dream job often. As you gather experience, an attitude of: what can I do to help, while giving your best effort will help you learn from each position. Experience is the best teacher, cliche or not.

    Success in any situation is 100% driven by attitude.

    Yes, there are toxic situations and workplaces- absolutely there are.

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